So far, I’ve been able to hold it together (for the most part) while I’ve been away from the family. I’m almost a third of the way through my school, and the family will actually be here to visit me a month from today! While the time hasn’t been going by as fast as I would like, it has at least been moving. The end isn’t in sight yet, but I’m starting to believe that it will be in the near future.
Things will probably start getting tougher for me though. One of the saving graces so far has been that there hasn’t been any major family events. CinC HOUSE and I try not to stress the holidays too much for this exact reason. When you spend so much time apart, it’s dangerous to put too much stake on single days. Therefore, while I was gone for Valentine’s Day, it’s something that didn’t bother us too much.
Birthdays, on the other hand, are a much different story. They are much more personal and something that should be celebrated. They represent major milestones for the kids, and it’s nice to have someone around to reminisce with for the adults.
This becomes very applicable because tomorrow is Little Dude’s birthday. He’ll be turning 4, and this is the first time that I will have missed it. My wife is doing something awesome and celebrating it tonight, so I can watch him open his presents on Skype, but it’s still really hard for me. CinC HOUSE had to do all the shopping, and she got the cake and everything on her own. As a result, it’s hard for me to feel like I was a part of it. It’s tough when there is a possibility that your family might think you’re not there for them.
Now, as I look forward, I realize that I will also miss Princess’ birthday, my wife’s birthday, and father’s day. That’s going to be a tough gauntlet to run.